What's been Happenin Lately
Yeah,.... so lately i've been fighting with my best friend Heather.... It irritates me and depresses me all at the same time. It started on Kayla's Birthday (sept. 12) but to keep a long story short she gave up on our friendship and we haven't talked since.... This isn't the first time it's happened and I feel like im fighting a losing battle.... I mean sure i still want to hang out with heather.... but it's like lately she hates me or something she gets pissed about the littlest things, i have to watch what i say around her or i might trigger a switch... I can't talk to her like i use to with out running the risk of making her mad and whats worse is when i do make her mad she won't tell me she just walks off.... Maybe I should just give up......
What's even worse is my friend Jen is going through a rough time and i can't do anything to help. She got kicked out of her house after she got into a fight with her mom, she moved to tennesse then ran out of money and had to move back to iowa to live with her dad.... i just feel so helpless
And another factor in my life God. Dude i am so backsliding. I am growing farther and farther away from God, but yet i don't seem to care and i can't figure out why. I know that i need to start going to church more and start reading the bible more but for some reason i just don't seem to do it. It's really kind of pathetic.
On a brighter note I am hanging out with a few new people and they seem really kool.... I mean i don't entirely agree with some of the stuff they did to a friend of mine but i forgave them and im really glad i did... These two are the most animated people ive ever met and what's more creepy is we all have alot in common. I see alot of similarites between us and it's really kool.... Sam is the sweetest person i've met, i mean she cares so much about being nice to people its not even funny, and she's really sensitive and can easily cry ( i envy this so much it's not even funny) and Megan is really kool she and I have alot in common..............but at the same time there is this thought that runs in the back of my mind, what if...... What if they hurt me some how? or worse What if they hurt Dee again? I know it shouldn't be there but it is.... There are other questions too... but those are the normal one for me like what do they think of me? Will I end up saying something really stupid? It's just that im parinoid about this stuff. Sam and Megan are really cool but i still can't help but wonder.
I am really happy about the fact that im dateing also. I'm dateing the most wonderful person in the entier world and i wouldn't trade them for anything.
What's even worse is my friend Jen is going through a rough time and i can't do anything to help. She got kicked out of her house after she got into a fight with her mom, she moved to tennesse then ran out of money and had to move back to iowa to live with her dad.... i just feel so helpless
And another factor in my life God. Dude i am so backsliding. I am growing farther and farther away from God, but yet i don't seem to care and i can't figure out why. I know that i need to start going to church more and start reading the bible more but for some reason i just don't seem to do it. It's really kind of pathetic.
On a brighter note I am hanging out with a few new people and they seem really kool.... I mean i don't entirely agree with some of the stuff they did to a friend of mine but i forgave them and im really glad i did... These two are the most animated people ive ever met and what's more creepy is we all have alot in common. I see alot of similarites between us and it's really kool.... Sam is the sweetest person i've met, i mean she cares so much about being nice to people its not even funny, and she's really sensitive and can easily cry ( i envy this so much it's not even funny) and Megan is really kool she and I have alot in common..............but at the same time there is this thought that runs in the back of my mind, what if...... What if they hurt me some how? or worse What if they hurt Dee again? I know it shouldn't be there but it is.... There are other questions too... but those are the normal one for me like what do they think of me? Will I end up saying something really stupid? It's just that im parinoid about this stuff. Sam and Megan are really cool but i still can't help but wonder.
I am really happy about the fact that im dateing also. I'm dateing the most wonderful person in the entier world and i wouldn't trade them for anything.
posted by Jensen at
4:47 PM
2 Comments:
Hey! You have every right to have those questions in the back of your mind. but to tell you the truth, I don't wanna do that again to her. We missed out on having some great friends last year, but the good side of this is that we are friends now. I feel extremely bad about what I did last year. It changed a lot of things for all of us. anyways, I'm having fun hanging out with you guys and I know Meg is too!! *Sammy*
Yeah, the kids right on that one. You and I have a ton of stuff in common and its really cool that womeone can finally relate to me. It really cool, for me at least. I understand how you still have those questions about us and if I were you I would prolly do the same thing but I'm not gunna do ne thing to either one of you to hurt you. You guys are us 2 years earlier. Everything that you guys do or say is so funny to me because I've been there with Sammy. Its just ironic and really goofy. So no I'm not laughing at you guys but just the fact you're alot like we were and its cool. I'm glad I started talking to Derika again cuz now I have 2 new friends that I think are amazing people. Just remember I'm on your side now. I know it can be and prolly will be hard to trust me but I'll wait it out. I've been where you are and I would love to help either one of you if you needed it. I'll let ya go now... Megz
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