Grrr....Helplessness sucks

Grrr... I feel so helpless right now. I mean, three of my closets friends are going through rough times and I can't really do much about it. I dunno their problems might not seem like much to you, but to me they mean everything. To start out Heather and I are finally getting along, we're good friends again. But she feels like an outcast. I can't exactly help her with that either. I mean, I'm trying to include her more but she just doesn't want to do the things we're doin or hang out with the people im hanging out with. Which I understand, but i can't help. *sigh* Then, there's Sammy who's having a little bit of trouble with the 'rents (for all of you who don't know 'rents is the equivalent of parents). Which again I can't help with cause well i don't really know her 'rents so I can't say much to them about what I think. But if i could say something it would be along the lines of, "I can't believe how stupid you're being grrr... I mean, come on as long as Sammy's happy and going to college does it really matter where or with who?" I'd prolly say alittle more than that but I'll just leave it. Last but not least, Meg... It's her last day of Marching Band Today!!!! She loves Band, and it's killing her... Last night I saw a side Meg that I was kinda surprised to see. I always saw Megan as a person who doesn't get really emotional about things, but she got emotional about this and I was standing there like an idiot not knowing what to do. I felt soo, helpless. I guess I realize now that the reson it shocked me so much is because Meg and I are so much alike, but the difference is she's not afraid to get attached to the stuff she loves. While, on the other hand I am. I believe that's part of the reason I look up to her so much... I guess I kinda see her as the big sister I never had. I know that this might sound a little second grade ish but I wanna be just like Meg someday. To have the strength of heart that she does... To stick up for people I don't even know that well (even if it's against my best friend)... To not be afraid... You know I guess that's why my favorite movies, and sayings, and songs all have to do with courage to do something or another.... It's be cause i lack that courage. It's also the reason I have many friends who are brave and do have the courage to do certain things... I guess i'm hopeing that it'll rub off on me somehow

"Courage is not the absence of fear but knowing that something is more important than the fear itself."

~Nicki~ Out